Showing posts with label Mind Dump. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Mind Dump. Show all posts

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Deep Thoughts with Nathan Lawrenson


So, Tricia was just flipping through the tv channels, and Arthur was on PBS, and we just caught a few seconds of it, and some little monkey girl was asking her parents if they could go to the pet shop.

Why does a show about talking, walking, human-like animals have a pet shop? That seems more than a little demented to me...

And, for that matter, what's the deal with Pluto and Goofy?

Thanks, and please don't take me seriously.

Nate

Friday, February 1, 2008

Update and Q&A

Gwyneth Rose is, in the words of one of her nurses, "Eating and pooping like a champ." She'll receive just a few drops of breast milk every 6 hours for about 5 days (she's on day 3, I think), and then they'll reassess and hopefully begin giving her a little more. She's on the lowest settings on the vent, and they should be moving her to the CPAP soon.

Also, she is gaining weight and is actually now above her birth weight for the first time! She's about 1lb 6.5oz. Yeah!!!

Tricia has been having some up and down days since moving out of the ICU. Her docs will not allow her to go see Gwyneth (it's been since last Saturday night), which is something she's having a hard time with, but something that she's trying to understand. She is also still very weak and has not been able to do as much PT as she was doing last weekend, which means she hasn't spent as much time outside of her room as she'd like.

She really needs to gain some weight...weight and strength will be two things she'll need going into transplant surgery that will help her during post-surgery rehabilitation. (I'll post a lot more about the transplant stuff tomorrow)

Tricia is spending most of her time focusing on breathing and on physical therapy. We have lots of books and magazines and games and tv to keep her busy, but she hasn't messed with much of it...it's amazing to me how much time and effort she is putting into getting as healthy as she can.

I've posted a lot in the past few days, an I'll probably be posting a lot in the next few days...the transplant activation could be upon us shortly, and there is a lot that I've been meaning to say that I want to get in before she's activated.

I want you to know that I've read every comment that has been written on this blog (over 9000 of them). Just an observation...I find amusing the comments that start our with, "I'm speechless/I have nothing left to say" and then go on to say more (usually lots more). I'm not being critical...I seriously think that's funny.

Please, know that, while I appreciate all of the encouraging emails that are coming our way, I DO NOT open Forwards...they're just too dangerous on several different levels. I've received several forwards from our blog readers, and I'm sure most of them are great emails, but I just send them to the trash. I'm sorry.

Time for some Q&A:

> While Gwyneth is just now getting some serious breast milk, she has been "feeding" via liquid IV, full of all of the nutrients, etc. that her little body needs. This is the big reason why she has stayed healthy without much growth over her first three weeks. With the breast milk, she is being fed via a feeding tube down her throat.

> You can buy all the baby clothes you want, but we'd prefer that you only send us something if you've taken the time to send me an email to get our address, and even then, I may tell you that we have all that we need for the time being.

> We're working on getting a PayPal account up and running for Tricia's Trust Fund (as several people have inquired about this).

> Feel free to link us and/or post about us on your blog...we appreciate all the help we can get! But, if you're going to mention our story in any kind of publication, please make sure that you get our expressed permission first.

> I'm not sure if grandparents can do the Kangaroo Care in the NICU at this point. Tricia remains on "contact isolation", which means she can't have any physical contact with Gwyneth...this will probably last until after the transplant surgery. I have promised Tricia that nobody else but me will have this opportunity until she is able to join me...it was bad enough that she was about the last person on earth to know of and see pictures of her own baby. :)

> We are planning on using some simple sign language to teach Gwyneth to communicate with us when she is young (and before she can speak). You can read more about this technique Here.

> Tricia has had a feeding tube for about a year. It has helped tremendously with her weight issues (CF patients are usually very thin), and she would recommend it to any CF patient who is struggling with their weight.

> Somebody commented, "My sympathies at the loss of your wife and daughter." Just to make sure, they're not dead. :)

> There are a few different types of ways to test for CF, and there are many different mutations of the gene among carriers which can require multiple screenings to detect. Gwyneth's only test so far has been a blood test that is not completely reliable. The standard for testing among infants is the Sweat Test, and Gwyneth is not sweating yet. I was screened via a blood lab before we were married to discover if I am a carrier of the CF gene, which I'm not, which is why we are not concerned about Gwyneth's possible status as a CFer.

> They say that you can set a goal to have your preemie out of the NICU sometime around their original (40 week) due date. If the preemie does extremely well, their time in the NICU can be cut short, and if there are complications, you can expect a longer stay.

Finally, here are a few thoughts that ran through my head as I was holding Gwyneth last night:

>
My heartbeat is the first she's heard in over three weeks...the first since she last heard her mother's...

> Gwyneth is much smaller than my pug (a toy breed) was when we first got her... Below is a picture of me holding Meka the pug when we brought her home when she was just 8 weeks old...above a picture of me holding Gwyneth when she was just over 27 weeks old (gestational). I am in no way comparing my daughter with a dog...just trying to show you exactly how small Gwyneth really is.



> Although I would have preferred to share this moment with Tricia, my second choice was my mom...as I held my baby for the first time, she told me about my birth almost 27 years ago. That was special. Thanks, mom!

> Why God is blessing me in this way is beyond my comprehension.

Nate

Monday, January 28, 2008

A Few Things I'm Learning (or) Making Lists is a Good Way to Kill Time in the Middle of the Night

> I whine and complain way too much.

> Other people whine and complain way too much.

> Living on hospital and fast food can make you really fat.

> Our families mean more to me than anybody else on earth.

> God loves to prove Himself to anyone who may doubt Him (and I'm first in line).

> Pugs are the best dogs in the world.

> There ain't nobody's wife tougher than mine, and there ain't nobody's mother tougher than Gwyneth's.

> Talking with God is so much easier and funner when it's a constant, throughout the day kind of thing, as opposed to a set time before meals and bed (for both of us).

> Nurses need to be paid a lot more.

> ICU nurses need to be paid even more than a lot more.

> People who live with God but without close friends and family have it rough.

> People who live with close friends and family but without God have it rougher.

> Orange FILAs are the most comfortable shoes in the history of the world.

> Nothing beats a God-centered, worship-driven church family.

> Everybody appreciates a smile, especially in hospitals.

> The little things can matter the most.

> God is The Solid Rock.

> Good music is so under-rated.

> The person who invented Blogs should be named king of the world.

> Don't judge other people who don't appear to care when you are in a crisis.

> Hospital social workers are my heroes.

> Sunshine is under-rated.

> Windows are even more under-rated.

> Strangers can be your best friends.

> God never wastes a hurt.

Nate

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Christmas Update

> This Christmas was very different, but very special. It will be our last as non-parents, and hopefully our last with CF lungs. I don't want to spend another Christmas in a hotel, but I wouldn't trade this one for anything.

> Waffle House is the only restaurant open on Christmas, and they are hopping. I basically ate cookies all day.

> Breathing is getting harder and harder for Tricia as the baby gets bigger, and her nose is clogged up, which makes it hard for her to breathe her extra oxygen.

> We're almost at 24 weeks, when our girl could survive outside of her mommy's belly.

> Tricia just asked me what today's date was... (duh!)

> Our next doc appointment is January 8. Hopefully we'll have more pictures then.

> I got season 3 of "The Office" on DVD for Christmas...I still need to finish season 2 first.

> We're going shopping at Babies R Us tomorrow!

> Meka is seriously scared of my new camera...every close shot I get of her, she's got her ears tucked back.

Nate

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

Stuff

> I'm going to be a father...

> I changed the label of this blog on that lieel blogrush widget over there --> to "Pregnancy".

> Tricia is probably staying up here this weekend. I'm probably going home on Friday to get some work in and clean soem slothes and brings some more stuff back up, and her mom will come up and hang while I'm gone.

> Thanks, Patience and Jordan for bringing over a load of maternity clothes...we haven't had the time to shop for anything for Tricia yet.

> Thanks again to all of the thousands of people (most of whom we've never met) who are all of a sudden praying for Tricia. That means a lot to us, because we know God is real and hears and answers prayer.

> We sat around the hotel tonight playing card games and watching tv (which is cool with me). We thought about going to church, but Tricia wasn't feeling completely up to it.

> Looks like we'll probably be celebrating Christmas here in Durham.

> I felt the baby move again tonight...she doesn't like to move much for me.

> Tricia has not been sleeping well the past few weeks. She got an echocardiogram today just to check on things, and everything looks normal. Please pray that she gets some good sleep (me too).

That's all for now. Thanks!

Nate

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

4:52 AM

We're up. Part of the experience of staying at the hospital. Tricia just got poked by a few needles. I'm "sleeping" in the chair.

Nate

Thursday, November 8, 2007

Home

Tricia's sleeping beside me. It's our last night here at this home.

We've got several people coming tomorrow to help us pack and move. Thanks in advance!

The drive home tonight was especially long...it was either that it was dark the entire trip, or it was that I ate about 10 pieces of pizza immediately before leaving, or a combination of both.

Thanks Megan and Leah for flying down just to hang out with us this week, and Agnes for driving out to spend time with us (Leah). ;)

Ralphie is always excited when we get home for the weekend. My dad and/or Sue usually come spend some time with him, but he's still starved for attention. He basically spends the irst few hours upon our arrival running around and butting his head against any available part of our bodies. He's laying on top of Tricia right now. I think he's going to love grandma.

BTW, my grandma is moving into this house on Saturday, and she's going to be caring for Ralphie for the time being. Meka will miss him. They are best of friends...can you say "Milo and Otis"?



This weekend is going to be crazy. I'm not completely looking forward to waking up tomorrow...

Nate

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Taking a Break

> Heading home in a few minutes. Wrapping up week...I've lost track...

> Taking next week off from the back and forth of Durham. We've got TRUNKorTREAT next Wednesday, and we're going to attempt to get all of our packing finished so we can get out of our OBX rental by the end of the month.

> Another day of rain here in Durham...only need about 30 more of days like these to get us out of the seriously dangerous drought that we're in.

> I've been to Starbucks each of the past two days (I'm here right now)...that's incredibly odd as I usually only make about 2 visits per year...but that's what happens when you believe that coffee tastes like dirt and stunts your growth. But, they're giving away free music downloads on iTunes, so I figure the incredibly overpriced (and slighty dirt-tasting) hot chocolate is worth it.

> We had an appointment with the CF docs this morning, and everything is looking good. Here's Tricia in the examining room.


> I have to go pick up Tricia now and head home.

Nate

Saturday, October 13, 2007

Saturday Night

> My new shoes haven't come in yet...I'm pretty sure I would have run like 11 miles today...

> Tricia and I participated in the 1st Annual Vintage Ping Pong Tournament this evening. Neither of us made it very far, but it was fun.

> Next week mayb be a short week for us...we mayb not make it up to Durham until Tuesday, and we may have to come home early...throw in a day at the state fair, and we may only get 2 days of PT in.

> We're going to get some packing done tomorrow. Feel free to join us.

> I love baseball in October!

> I love that the Skins could be in first place tomorrow afternoon!

> I love that the eagles are really bad!

> I love that my wife is smokin' hot!

Nate

Thursday, October 11, 2007

That's A Wrap

> Today wraps week 6 of PT. Tricia should "graduate" next week, meaning she's completed the 23 days required minimum of PT. But, it's up to the doctors and God when she'll be activated.

> It finally feels like fall is here...that's me below in downtown 5 minutes ago with my hooded sweatshirt on.


> The NC State Fair begins tomorrow...we're taking a day off from PT and going all day next week. Tricia's super excited, especially since her only similar experience has been the NJ fair (I did not realize produce and small farm animals could survive in that kind of environment)

> We saw a cat this morning that looked like Ralphie, and I thought Tricia was going to cry...thanks dad and Sue for checking on him this week!

> Maybe my sweet new shoes will come in before Monday!
Nate

Thursday, October 4, 2007

October


> The Cubs lost yesterday, but the Sox won and the phillies lost, so it was a good day overall.

> Tricia is finishing up her week of PT today...we're headed home around 3:30. We're going to stop at 9th St. in downtown Durham to get some lunch/dinner...there are some cool places to eat.

> The Durham/Raleigh area is in a major drought...they're down to like 50% in their reservoirs. Lucky for them I only shower once a week here...

> I'm hoping we can go see some excellent basketball in a few months at UNC and Duke.

> We're going to try to get some more packing done this weekend.

That's all for now.

Nate

Tuesday, October 2, 2007

Late Night Thoughts (having little to do with CF)

I have nowhere else to write about these things, so this is the place...

> I love October ONLY for baseball. I hate it because summer is long gone and a long, stupid winter is ahead.

> Speaking of baseball, the tie-breaker last night between the Rockies and Padres was one of the best games ever...too bad I fell asleep in the top of the 13th...

> Law & Order: SVU tonight was the best ever as well. It kinda freaked me out for some reason. I am addicted to SVU and L&O reruns on TNT and USA. I HATE Criminal Intent...


> I much prefer to have Meka with us up here. She keeps me company while Tricia is doing transplant stuff.


> I am a Cubs fan this October!

> I hope the phillies get swept.

Goodnight.

Nate

Thursday, September 27, 2007

Upcoming Stuffs

> Tricia has completed 11 of the 23 days of PT she needs to be placed on the active transplant list. At our rate, this mean the soonest she would probable be placed on the list is in about 3 weeks.

> Tricia, espeically, is very excited about the upcoming NC State Fair. I went with my family and the crazy Korbachs at least 15 years ago and haven't been since. From what I hear, NC does state fairs as good as anyone. We're literally just a few miles from the fairgrounds.

> Tricia's feeling much better, but the cold has given her lots of nasty mucus in her lungs. The build-up of mucus is what deteriorates her lungs because it allows bugs and bacteria and other stuff to get in and stay in. She has a lot of coughing to do.

> We're both excited that we might be able to participate in our church's HUGE Trunk or Treat event in October.


I'll give 27 points to the first person to find me in this photo AND figure out what famous movie character I was last year...

> We're going home today. I'll get two full work days in at the church instead of just one like last week. But, I've also been doing work here in Durham, so no need to fire me yet.

> I'm going to breakfast now to eat my granola and yogurt mix. Hopefully, the OJ will be "in of order"...

Nate

Thursday, September 13, 2007

I Just Thought I'd Let You Know...

...I really like the picture below.

...and, it's nice having a Mac with a built-in camera.

...I almost look as good as my wife in this picture.

That's all.

Nate

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Up Late...

...I've been up by 6am the past two days and will be up at 5:30 (5 hours from now) to drive out to Durham to be with Tricia for a few days. I need sleep but I'm not tired yet.

...we have a BIG appointment tomorrow at Duke that will help us figure out what's going on with Tricia and what we should be expecting over the next several months. We appreciate your prayers.

...the Great Strides Walk for CF that I have been organizing (not by myself, thanks to an awesome team) is this Saturday, and we're still getting things ready. Please, pray that the weather is good and lots of people show up. We've nearly met our financial goal!

...that's all for now...

Nate