Yesterday, before Tricia was taken to the OR, her nurse, Brandie told me that she was going to ask the doctors if she could be present in the room during Tricia's surgery to simply stand out of the way and pray. I cannot tell you how grateful I am for Brandie's complete willingness to stand the gap for us in the OR (which she was able to do).
As I sat with my parents and Tricia's parents in the conference room outside the OR yesterday afternoon, waiting for news of Tricia and Gwyneth, fearing the worst and hoping for the best, I clutched in both hands the pager I had been given that would notify me that Tricia's surgery was complete.
I searched for any quick distraction from the "what if's" that were bombarding my thoughts...I considered how many others had held that exact same pager feeling my exact same pain. I also considered how many more would do the same after me. And, I spoke to God for those people, who both came before me and were coming after me, who would hold that same pager and have those same feelings. And, for at least a few moments, God's peace invaded my soul.
While sitting in the NICU waiting room just before seeing my baby girl for the first time yesterday, a young woman approached me and asked if I was Nathan. Kim had just delivered a 34 week preemie boy that morning. She had been following this blog after getting connection via good friend in Canada. She recognized me and immediately wanted to say "hi".
Please pray for Kim and husband Matt and baby David in the same way you have been praying for us.
I prayed this morning at Tricia's bed, holding her left hand with tears in my eyes. I expressed to God that I will accept anything He chooses for Tricia in the next few hours and days if He would allow just one person to understand and accept Him as their Savior. I don't like the idea of making deals with God, but I needed a sign that He is God.
Less than two hours later, a woman posted on Andy's Blog that she was finally "understanding" and "accepting" Jesus as her Savior.
My God is the awesome God.